Wednesday, November 11, 2009

My Thoughts

Sometimes we got too carried away with what or how we feel. Sometimes when somebody hurts you (physically or emotionally) you tend to tell yourself that you will get even one of these days, it's more like "an eye for an eye". But in feeling that way we also fail to realize that we are hurting ourself.

We meet different people in our daily life, and there is always a reason why. You may not know what/why right away but things happen for a reason. These people come and go but the lessons and impact they left will always be there.

Sometimes, its hard to let go and it will keep you from moving on. You will always look back and once again it will refresh the memories (the hurt and all some unanswered questions). But think if you let go and make amend? and when I say "amend" I mean a real/sincere one... what will happen? Do you think you still feel bad, sad, mad, or hurt? I don't think so.. maybe you will be glad that it is over and glad that you made things right before its too late.

Life is too short. You never know when is your time to go. Me? I don't know.. may be after I'm done writing this? maybe tomorrow? next day? who knows? I witnessed something (or may I say an event).. That event makes me sad and think that things could have been different if pride, stubbornness or being bullheaded was was set aside. That same event makes me think about things in my life. Everyone of us has pride or else we are no better than a robot. It's one of the characteristic that makes us a human being. The only difference is how we let pride dominate our life. Sometimes we are unaware that pride is telling us what to do. It is hard to swallow our pride. And it is always hard to forgive and forget. You might say that you have forgiven somebody, but ask yourself "did you really?". Nobody is perfect or else we would be living in a very boring world. I AM NOT PERFECT... that is one of my all time motto's. I might have done something wrong or bad that I did not even know about. I might have hurt people without knowing I did. I don't know...... I am only human and I tend to make mistakes.

Think about it. It is not yet too late. Don't wait and stop telling yourself that there is still tomorrow. Today might be your only chance and tomorrow might be too late.

So to all my friends and everyone whom I've known, sorry if ever I said or did something to hurt you. Sorry for whatever I did. And let us live life to its fullest and be happy for what we have. Thank you all for being part of who I am now and for who I will be.

Love and Peace

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Why do people cheat?

Talked with my distant cousin online and I found out he is having an affair. Yes! you heard me right. He is married with small kids and while working abroad he have a girlfriend. I saw it with my own eyes (in a webcam). We did not talked for long. I cut it short and don't want to talk to him.


I hate to think that people just forget about love, respect and loyalty. When you got married you are supposed to be together forever. You exchanged vows you promised to be together for better or worst in sickness and health. You promised to honor, respect and be loyal with each other. But why do people still cheat? I am mad, furious and disappointed. I don't know what I will do if this will happen to me (being cheated). Don't tell me that things happen because he is away from his wife. Or what people say "its a man thing". I hate it and I will always hate that idea.


I am sorry about this post. Just want to let it out my chest and this is the perfect place for me and of course I told my husband but its not enough. I don't know if I will tell somebody so his wife will be aware of? Or should I just keep quite and hope that maybe this is just a fling? But fling or not he is still a cheater. Why did he let me see it in the first place? Why would he put me in this situation? Should I just shrug it off and say its none of my business? We are not that close anyway. He popped up out of nowhere and told me he is "XXXX younger brother" which happens to be my friend. All I can remember of him is a young boy running around their house. I am having a headache. GRRRRRR!!!! :(:(:(